IORNY

so today Manolo ended things with me ..
well actaully just right now ..
and honestly it really does suck and it really does hurt..

for the first time in a really really long time, i opened myself up to a guy..
i let down all the barriers and just simply let him in .
started being the sweet heart and doing things for him that I hadnt done in a long time..

and everything seemed to be good.
while we were together we were always laughing.
joking and having a great time .

but out of no where things changed..

he told me he is sorry.
i did nothing wrong.
and that he simply isnt feeling it.

and though we were only dating for a month..
i think the fact of letting him in... is what honestly hurts..
the trust i laid on him .

its not about the time .. or the money or anything.. its about the feelings..

and he was really good at acting as if he was interested..
as if it was what he wanted...

the iorny in it all is that i told myself..
that it was going to happen ...
i already knew that he was ganna do this..
but yet it still sucks..

so i will do what i do best.. and that is paint a smile on.. and act like i am happy danddy little Jonathan...

GOODBYE MANOLO

THE CRAZY LIFE OF ME