THIS ONE IS TO THE FRIENDS

In this blog post i am going to use everyone real names..
simply because i think this one is important..
so here we go

In No particular Order

Ashley, mamma you don't know how much it is that i love you and that i miss you . I am so proud of you for doing what you have, and raising my nephew on your own.. finding away to make it threw what ever obstacles come your way.

Jlynn, wow.. thats all i have to say.. yeah we get into it.. yeah. you scream at me.. yeah i scream at you. but honestly Jay i fucken love you . oh sooo much.. seriously.. i do.. you just get me. and you know what im thinking before. i am even thinking it.. some of the words of advice that you have given me still stick to me till this day.. you have seen me threw some really shitty times.. and idk.. i thank god that i have you by myside.

Elithabeth.. BITCH BITCH BITCH. your my BITCH. i think out of everyone you and I bump heads the most and i know that you are always looking out for me.. and always trying to watch my back.. i know that out of everyone.. i can call you no matter. what and that you will be there.. I AM SOO SORRY. for shit that has happened in the past and you know that i mean .. you have one of the sweetest hearts i think i have ever... seen .. I am so glad that you have found your Knight IN Shinning EMT uniform lol .. honestly cuz babe you deserve all the happiness in the world.. you really do. you know my fagget ass is ganna be there every step of the way.. bumps and all .

Louren... BABE i admire your strength sooo much.. i know that things havent been easy.. not just lately but for a while.. but you always seem so strong.. and i admire that so much.. you have this light to yo.. that is indescribable.. you just simply make me happy.. just by sitting with me in my garage.. i miss you soo much and hate how we havent been the same.. but i know you married . now.. i am happy you have B .. he grounds you.. and idk its a good thing.. i can see the love that is between both of you ..

MR AMARO. .. well gibby what can i say about.. your my soul sister lol ..
i know that we fight.. especially when your drunk.. but in all honesty.. your my brother..
you lived with me.. our conversations in the green room.. the fagalow hills.. walking the strip together when i think of you.. i just think of all these happy memories.. i am so thank full that i have been able to live them with you and so much more to go.. I HONESTLY LOVE YOU ... and when with you .. laughing is a must..

GIA PIA.... your more then just my daughter... your idk .. AMAZING...
alot of people dont know you as well as i do.. and its so sad.. people just see jorge.. the alki that is loud. dancing and making friends at a club..
but alot of people dont see Jorge the bestfriend..
the guy that drives in the middle of the night so i can sleep
the one that is there to calm me down.. when im about to loose it.
the guy that sits there.. and talks to me.. about real shit.. real talks..

JESSICA CARMEN ZUNO...
your one for the books.
you ambition , drive and strive for excellence is honorable..
it like your the youngest ..
but surpass all of us.. with sheer hunger to succeed.
but babe you need to slow down and enjoy today.. stop living in tomorrow..
your amazing.. with an amazing personality and an even better heart..
the past couple.. days.. i ve seen a side to you.. that takes me back to a real hard time..
and babe.. it hurts me sooo much to see you there..
because it makes it all so real.. i can feel you pain.
YOU ARE SOO MUCH BETTER THEN THIS..
and im so proud and just idk thankful to always have you in my corner..
like i told you. you have always been my personal cheerleader.. and you have always..
pushed me forward.. for that i am endlessly grateful

April..
I AM AMAZED by you and your family..
the kindness.
honestly i consider you guys family and you know that i would
give the shirt off my back to make sure
that you guys are ok.
words cant describe how much i love you ..
love your mom
your dad
your sister.
stop fucking around with all those dushe bags lol
THE COLOR IS GREEN

ART.. MY LITTLE HUNNI HUNNI BEE..
i love your ass.. you are simply just there .. when i need you and want you and even when i dont. and that is why i love you.
we have made it threw the test of time..
you gibby and I .. idk i think there is something there.. that simply cant be broken..

Alfredo/Melissa ..
BROTHER FROM ANOTHER MOTHER..
whether its mission to no where.
endless weho nights
crazy nights in your room
or you busting mission to pick me up ..
i love you brother..
we have both been there for each other..
when i have broken down in tears..
you are just there..
thank you..
im happy for where you are in your lilfe.. and i know that the only direction for  you is UP

BRYAN SILVA.. i love your beaner/ shaikra loving ass.
your the kind of friend.. that i dont have to see every day.. or talk to every other.. but when i do see you.. its amazing.. you saw me when i was my happiest..
then saddest and then normal..
and always been there making sure i didnt stay in the hole..

MRS BIANCA.. I AM SOO THANKFUL TO HAVE MET YOU..
you and i have kindred spirits. you are probably the one of the only good things that came out of that shit hole we called a school .. but i would go threw all the bullshit.. and all the attitudes. and everything a million times over.. if i were to know i would come out at the end with such an amazing person in my life as you.. you were there to hold me up when at times.. i felt as if i was too weak to hold myself. up..
you pulled me out of the gutter brushed me up and threw me back into the world and i dont think i can ever express how thankful i am for that..
LA CAPILLA. SEA FOOD PORT... and HAIR SHOWS.. I LOVE YOU

CARLA SEALS.. i dont give a fuck what anyone in the world has to say about you.. babe you DO YOU .. all the time.. and i admire your strength and your individuality .. you are one crazy ass hoe.. but together.. we are a force to be wrecking with.. i dont think i have anything negative to say about you... your home.. is like another home for me.. and with you i fell incredible..

Nani... i dont think anyone.. and i mean anyone. can compare to you.. WHY i dont know.. but in all honesty you on a different level.. we have this ability to be idk.. just amazing.. you bring out the best in me.. i can tell you anything.. and know that.. it stays there.. i know i can not talk to you in months.. but call you needing you and your Right there.. that regardless of your surroundings.. or anyone .. you still have my back.. I LOVE YOU NANI..

I KNOW THAT I DONT TELL YOU GUYS ALL THE TIME.. AND I KNOW I REALLY SHOULD BUT I LOVE ALL OF YOU .. IN YOUR OWN SPECIAL AND UNIQUE WAY. YOU KNOW THAT I AM THERE FOR ALL OF YOU IN YOUR OWN WAY.. AND THAT I WILL ALWAYS HAVE YOU GUYS BACK..

WE ALL ALWAYS SECOND GUESS OURSELF..
BUT PLEASE .. DONT EVER FEEL LIKE YOUR LESS THEN PERFECT.
OR NOTHING.
CUZ TO ME YOU ARE ALL PERFECT...

I LOVE YOU

-Jonathan..

THE CRAZY LIFE OF ME

Last Night

SO last night i decieded to go to tigerheat last minute
and since
justin and roman were at a fashion show..
i then was shit outta luck
lol
but jerry was still around.
so i get jerry.
a new friend. mathew.
and drive out to pick up
edwin.
we all head out to tigerheat.
we get there..
and we start the line.
pretty soon.
Erik, josh, victor, vincent, and many other show up.
and our group of 4 turns into a group of 12.

as we walk in
Valentino and Number 13 are there
along with boyfriend and OhLALA.
and not to mention
Arnold.

Over all it was a great time and i am happy i did..
filled with dancing laughing.
and
a little fighting but a great night...

another night
in
THE CRAZY LIFE OF ME

THE POWER OF MUSIC

i think the music is something all of us enjoy
not mattering the genre
or the artist
or the age of the person
everyone enjoys music.

music is s powerful
and can evoke
many things
from feeling. to memories
make you smile, cry or laugh

the power of music is just amazing..
and idk ..
just thought i would put it out there

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LOVE

LOVE   
love is a very controversial subject with alot of people
some people love to love
while other love to hate love.
but which ever side it is that you take
there is something no one can Deny.

YOU WILL EXPERIENCE LOVE IN YOUR LIFETIME.

Some like to say that you can live your life fall in love.. and fall out of love and then just keep going..

But i very strongly disagree
i do not think that you can fall out of love, or that love actually dies.
i Think that love is such a strong feeling, a strong emotion that it completely changes you .. it changes how you act. how you think and the things you do. And because of you that you can never fall out of love.
because the change will always be a part of you .

everyone has their first love. so  pure.. so unconditional and so naive

and i think this is the hardest love to let go of.

What i do believe is when you know that the love you are feeling..
is not good.
that the situation you have been putting up with or the circumstances that have arisen are not suitable for you.
that the relationship you are par taking in has become a poison.
that that you must get yourself out of .

that i do believe in ..
but the love that you have for the person
will always be there..
because if it isn't.
then that simply wasn't love

love turns your world around.
it makes everything go upside down ..

love is something that everyone strives for.. everyone searches.
sometimes you aren't even looking for it .. and when it hits
nothing is stronger.

THAT IS LOVE

and even the least affectionate..
and the coldest of hearts will feel it,

and it will change you...

my thought about LOVE is that is amazing.
it is indescribable..
but it is LOVE

something.. i was thinking about.
as i lay in my bed..
starring at my black celling
listening to the songs my itunes plays as it is on shuffle..




Just...
THE CRAZY LIFE OF ME

Thoughts.. just Thoughts

Do you ever get that feeling...
its soo deep inside. that something isnt right.
that something is up
and you dont know what and you dont know how to explain it.. but you feel it soo deep inside your gut.

i have that feeling right. Now.. i feel as if something is going on.
and certain things just idk
they just feel off you know what i mean

i am sitting here with my brother. just watching a show on prisoners.
and it hit me like a brick wall ..
something is going on...
ugh i hate it.. but its true..

idk

any ways...
today was an ok day actually

i woke up i went for a run.
i added more to the website that i am getting ready to Launch.
i played some video games. and really just chilled.

i hung out with a friend. went to a record store.
and then to Victoria gardens and then the mills lol

but it was cool just chilling with a friend..

the funniest thing just happened..
that as i was writing this.
she texted me..
completely not knowing what was going on and simply said
I FEEL LIKE SOMETHING WRONG IS GOING ON, I LOVE YOU JON

seriously who would think that someone i met on such a fling would come out to be such a great friend..

any ways.. ganan just chill out and watch TV with my bro.
tomorrow.. i think I'm ganna go to school lol
i don't know yet.

we shall see how i feel.
and i think i need a new hobby.
or idk something
a new job my days feel so empty now..
as if i am just living with no purpose..

so that is that ..
and things will be what they are
just different things that make up

THE CRAZY LIFE OF ME

MONDAY

Monday wich was yesterday I woke up
cleaned.
went to go eat with my mom .
and then i went to the movies with
Roman.
Justin
and
Ashley .

We ended up seeing I am number Four.
and it was actaully a really good movie..
the actor..
bomb..
honestly he is a cutie
his dad.
is a cutie as well lol

it is always a good time when i am with them ... lol
walked around the mall and laughed.

i went to Manolos had a quick conversation with him.
and then left.

i went to my trannys house.. had a talk to her.
and idk i love her.
she put so many things in perspective for me
and let me know exactly what i needed to hear.
now i am back to who i am orgianlly am ..
and idk
im happy =]

just another part of
THE CRAZY LIFE OF ME

RECAP ON WEEKEND

Okay so
on sunday
Jerry and I went to
see Manny and Saul .
We hung out and just laughed..
then pretty soon Jerry left and Dina came.

Then Mannys friend Wherra came..
we started drinking and making plans for the night
we decided to
go Oasis..
and it was alright

with manny saul dina and wherra it was a great time
but then i started to sketch out.
because of everything that was going on .
Manolo was there.. and idk it was weird.. lol

But i think it was needed.. somethings needed to come to a head...

THE CRAZY LIFE OF ME