Done trying
For the past two days, I have came to the realization that I am completely done trying. In total
There are those people in my life that truly do deserve my efforts and my emotions. While others just simply don't.
I have tried my best with some people and even though I hate To admit defeat it comes to the point where I am no longer going to try....
I am the nice guy. The great guy that everyone says I am. But at this point I am simply and honestly just done trying.
It's time to focus on me =]
Just more craZiness in the life of me
THE CRAZy LIfE OF ME
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
OCTOBER RECAP
October recap
Well since I haven't really blogged in a while and in all hearted honestly I can't remember my life on the day to day basis I will do a complete recap of a month.
October was a crazy month,
To say the least
I made some amaZing new friends and lost some as well.
All in end I believe tht october was great and I did Alot of growing.
Well let's start it off at the beginig...
It started with vonnie living with me and god only knows the craziness that we got into together. Honestly some of the best laughs, and craziness have came out of that friendship lol.
Midnight food runs, Qvc nights and
Just being random.
There was a boy.... And he will actually have his own blog lol cuz there is Alot in my head when it comes to him. Lol
But threw him I met his cousin, who is hilarious and always such a good time. Who is such a sweet heart and my midnight crack head conversation.
I went bar hopping in Weho with the regular beatfriends Gibby and art but ir the first time Bryan and jose came too. Let's just say my credit card melted that night but it was a blast. Bryan for the first time went bar hopping so I jut hope that I made it a memorable one =]
I went to the escape from wonderland, I didn't get in until midnight and after it costing me and arm and a leg. And getting cussed out. Once I got in, it was amazing. The smile on his face when he saw me said it all. And in all honesty all that mattered was that he was having a good time.
Halloween, was just a headache and a half. All day it was as if god was telling me not to go out. My I'd went missing. I still went out had a good time. N then all he'll broke loose. But honestly it was good.
Friends that I believed to have been close too, and whom I believed to be dear friends came out to be nothing of the sort. I think I did some growing up in that sence.
And that was simply October....
THE CRAZY LIfE OF ME
Well since I haven't really blogged in a while and in all hearted honestly I can't remember my life on the day to day basis I will do a complete recap of a month.
October was a crazy month,
To say the least
I made some amaZing new friends and lost some as well.
All in end I believe tht october was great and I did Alot of growing.
Well let's start it off at the beginig...
It started with vonnie living with me and god only knows the craziness that we got into together. Honestly some of the best laughs, and craziness have came out of that friendship lol.
Midnight food runs, Qvc nights and
Just being random.
There was a boy.... And he will actually have his own blog lol cuz there is Alot in my head when it comes to him. Lol
But threw him I met his cousin, who is hilarious and always such a good time. Who is such a sweet heart and my midnight crack head conversation.
I went bar hopping in Weho with the regular beatfriends Gibby and art but ir the first time Bryan and jose came too. Let's just say my credit card melted that night but it was a blast. Bryan for the first time went bar hopping so I jut hope that I made it a memorable one =]
I went to the escape from wonderland, I didn't get in until midnight and after it costing me and arm and a leg. And getting cussed out. Once I got in, it was amazing. The smile on his face when he saw me said it all. And in all honesty all that mattered was that he was having a good time.
Halloween, was just a headache and a half. All day it was as if god was telling me not to go out. My I'd went missing. I still went out had a good time. N then all he'll broke loose. But honestly it was good.
Friends that I believed to have been close too, and whom I believed to be dear friends came out to be nothing of the sort. I think I did some growing up in that sence.
And that was simply October....
THE CRAZY LIfE OF ME
BREAKING DAWN
Breaking dawn
No pun intended,
As I sit here on my terrace legs dangling over my back yard. I see the first glimpse of sun light. The first sun rays peaking over the horizon. I can't help but feel a weird bitterness.
I reminisce about the past couple days. The past couple weeks at that, how the holiday season is yet upon us again and how it is "family time".
Thanks giving dinner came and went and I caught myself being there physically. But mentally and emotionally I was all over the place.
How is it that some people have the ability or that we grant them the ability to grab a hold of us. Our hearts,our thoughts and our emotions. And they simply just take control.
I know I know why is it that I am always going threw something when it comes to the significant other.
But in reality I don't know what to think.
In some way all I want to do is run. Just grab my things and run away.
Feel the wind and the rain blow across my face, have the evening shadows turn into day...
What am I here to do ? Who am I to become?
Both questions that everyone asks, and that everyone is puzzled by. Will I ever have the answers ?
Idk just more craziness thrown into the
The Crazy Life Of Me
No pun intended,
As I sit here on my terrace legs dangling over my back yard. I see the first glimpse of sun light. The first sun rays peaking over the horizon. I can't help but feel a weird bitterness.
I reminisce about the past couple days. The past couple weeks at that, how the holiday season is yet upon us again and how it is "family time".
Thanks giving dinner came and went and I caught myself being there physically. But mentally and emotionally I was all over the place.
How is it that some people have the ability or that we grant them the ability to grab a hold of us. Our hearts,our thoughts and our emotions. And they simply just take control.
I know I know why is it that I am always going threw something when it comes to the significant other.
But in reality I don't know what to think.
In some way all I want to do is run. Just grab my things and run away.
Feel the wind and the rain blow across my face, have the evening shadows turn into day...
What am I here to do ? Who am I to become?
Both questions that everyone asks, and that everyone is puzzled by. Will I ever have the answers ?
Idk just more craziness thrown into the
The Crazy Life Of Me
IM BACK.. Well for the time being at least
As the title says. It is pretty self explanatory.
I'm back for the time being , it has been since august 2cnd that I last blogged, and so I am going to start again.
There has been alot of things that happened. But I can't remember them all, some of the blogs i am going to post are actually pr-written on my iPhones notes that I ment to upload. But never did.
Also something that i have decided is that i am no longer going to be writing everyone as them being anonymous. It's just to much for me to remember people's names, andot get them confused ao from this point on I will use everyone's real name..
Plain and simple...
Just something new in
THE CRAZY LIfE OF ME
I'm back for the time being , it has been since august 2cnd that I last blogged, and so I am going to start again.
There has been alot of things that happened. But I can't remember them all, some of the blogs i am going to post are actually pr-written on my iPhones notes that I ment to upload. But never did.
Also something that i have decided is that i am no longer going to be writing everyone as them being anonymous. It's just to much for me to remember people's names, andot get them confused ao from this point on I will use everyone's real name..
Plain and simple...
Just something new in
THE CRAZY LIfE OF ME
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
More more and more
Thoughts that run threw my head as I drive out to johns house. Why is it that I am putting up with things that I normally wouldn't put up with lately, my gutt feeling is telling me go just walk away from certain situations but yet I am still there. Why?
I know who i am and I know what it is that I can endure. What it is that i can put up wi th and what I deserve to put up with.
Why am i letting myself fall behind.
Should I believe what it is that I am being told or turn aw ay now?
I am sitting here I n johns apartment as he naps fopr our "night out"
And I Strangly feel oddly comfortable here on the couch. Writing this as I am. I feel as if I am in my room.
I really honestly need to get my shit together.
I need to find a job that is both relaiable and pays good. Even if I get payed what I get payed now but with a lot more hours.
I see my. Focus. Shifting to what it was before and I hadn't realized it until tod ay as I drove over here.
I am starting to put other things before me, and that isn't good at all.
Other things thAt c tossed my mind n the way out is things that are taboo to speak about,and why some people are nosy. Lol
Let's admit it we are all nosy, to some point of another. For instance if I am dating w person or am going over to their place for the first time. And it is their own place I always go to the bathroom. And while in there I look behind their Medicine cabinet, you le arn oat about a person by looking behind. Their medicine cabinet.
Idk it is just a using of mine lol . Just how if you look inside a girls purse you will find out what type of girl she is. Same principal.
I hope that you guys are having a great d ay and are being s age I will probably be adding something in later tonight once I. Go threw my drunken adventures =]
Goodnight... Be safe ...
Cuz it is just more that adds up to
tHE cRAZY LiFE oF mE
I know who i am and I know what it is that I can endure. What it is that i can put up wi th and what I deserve to put up with.
Why am i letting myself fall behind.
Should I believe what it is that I am being told or turn aw ay now?
I am sitting here I n johns apartment as he naps fopr our "night out"
And I Strangly feel oddly comfortable here on the couch. Writing this as I am. I feel as if I am in my room.
I really honestly need to get my shit together.
I need to find a job that is both relaiable and pays good. Even if I get payed what I get payed now but with a lot more hours.
I see my. Focus. Shifting to what it was before and I hadn't realized it until tod ay as I drove over here.
I am starting to put other things before me, and that isn't good at all.
Other things thAt c tossed my mind n the way out is things that are taboo to speak about,and why some people are nosy. Lol
Let's admit it we are all nosy, to some point of another. For instance if I am dating w person or am going over to their place for the first time. And it is their own place I always go to the bathroom. And while in there I look behind their Medicine cabinet, you le arn oat about a person by looking behind. Their medicine cabinet.
Idk it is just a using of mine lol . Just how if you look inside a girls purse you will find out what type of girl she is. Same principal.
I hope that you guys are having a great d ay and are being s age I will probably be adding something in later tonight once I. Go threw my drunken adventures =]
Goodnight... Be safe ...
Cuz it is just more that adds up to
tHE cRAZY LiFE oF mE
Monday, July 18, 2011
Best thoughts
So why is it that the best thoughts always come to mind in the middle of the night when everyone is asleep but yu and you start playing random music
And what is it about music and being able to trigger memories and emotions being able to make ho happy and at the same time bring you pain?
Well I am sitting here in my room thinking about random things and random people,
And for some reason i miss mr sonics =\ lol
And what is it about music and being able to trigger memories and emotions being able to make ho happy and at the same time bring you pain?
Well I am sitting here in my room thinking about random things and random people,
And for some reason i miss mr sonics =\ lol
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
love letter ... unread
i dont know why you do this to yourself..
why do you keep on letting people treat you this way..
you say you change.. or that you will change..
you say you stronger but at the same time you aren t
and everyone can see..
people still seeem to use you .
to
get things from you
people think they can walk all over you .
why cant you see it..
what cant you change it.
do you even love yourself ?
why do you keep on letting people treat you this way..
you say you change.. or that you will change..
you say you stronger but at the same time you aren t
and everyone can see..
people still seeem to use you .
to
get things from you
people think they can walk all over you .
why cant you see it..
what cant you change it.
do you even love yourself ?
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