Tuesday, August 2, 2011

More more and more

Thoughts that run threw my head as I drive out to johns house. Why is it that I am putting up with things that I normally wouldn't put up with lately, my gutt feeling is telling me go just walk away from certain situations but yet I am still there. Why? 
I know who i am and I know what it is that I can endure. What it is that i can put up wi th and what I deserve to put up with. 
Why am i letting myself fall behind. 
Should I believe what it is that I am being told or turn aw ay now? 
 I am sitting here I n johns apartment as he naps fopr our "night out" 
And I Strangly feel oddly comfortable here on the couch. Writing this as I am. I feel as if I am in my room.
I really honestly need to get my shit together. 
I need to find a job that is both relaiable and pays good. Even if I get payed what I get payed now but with a lot more hours.  

I see my. Focus. Shifting to what it was before and I hadn't realized it until tod ay as I drove over here. 
 I am starting to put other things before me, and that isn't good at all. 

Other things thAt c tossed my mind n the way out is things that are taboo to speak about,and why some people are nosy. Lol 

Let's admit it we are all nosy, to some point of another. For instance if I am dating w person or am going over to their place for the first time. And it is their own place I always go to the bathroom. And while in there I look behind their Medicine cabinet, you le arn oat about a person by looking behind. Their medicine cabinet. 
 Idk it is just a using of mine lol . Just how if you look inside a girls purse you will find out what type of girl she is.  Same principal. 

I hope that you guys are having a great d ay and are being s age I will probably be adding something in later tonight once I. Go threw my drunken adventures =] 

Goodnight... Be safe ... 
Cuz it is just more that adds up to 

tHE cRAZY LiFE oF mE